Do you ever have a great idea in mind...just to have it shut down by the ones you share it with? Does it totally crush you? Well, it does me and did! I shed some tears, slept on it, did probably way too much thinking and stewing as to why things happened the way they did. Then! I woke up and thought, no, I'm doing this! No matter what and if someone doesn't support me, that is ok! That is their choice and I need to allow them that with understanding and compassion.
The old me would have let this bring me down, make my mind race, and bring in a ton of negative thoughts. Would have made me doubt myself and think 'why would I even think I could do that?' Now, I allowed myself that little bit of time and then got up, brushed myself off and moved forward! I have that mind set of determination! I put all the doubts, voices in my head telling me I can't or shouldn't, out of my head! I decided to make a choice to keep pushing and keep moving forward!
Who else is just like me and lets their mind spin out of control in certain situations? We sit and think why people looked at you a certain way and assume they must hate you! We rewind what we wrote or said about 100 times before we'll let it go. We over analyze pretty much EVERYTHING! I'm there with ya! But, I have learned this is in fact a choice. And some times, so that I can sleep at night, I need to just let it go. Sometimes I'll write out what I really want to say to someone, sometimes I'll be a weirdo and talk out loud, yes to myself, on what I'm really thinking. I just need to have my moment and then just let it be...and not let it change what I'm doing or planning to do!
If it's important to you, keep your determination! Push those doubts out of your mind! You got this!